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patrick!

by Airman Trout

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1.
pat: i'm not feeling like the kid i used to be with my long hair cut short and my growing poignancy you'll look back at all the memories you had and think about how much i suck and how i treated you so bad but i'm not him if i could cut off all the veins between my heart to my head i'd feel the same because in my brain i know i'm already dead inside my lungs there's a voice telling me not to breathe and i'm trying my best not to let it get to me (it won't shut the fuck up and i can't stop listening) theo: i've fallen way to far down left with nostalgic memories of times when only half of you had let me down shave your beard if that's how you're going to act cause no one wants to kiss a face through such a hairy mask your voice cracks are just what we needed so just close your eyes and shout it like you mean it pat: i'm not going back to the times i left all my friends at blair mill the way we felt when we were alive with broken hearts we held our scars high theo: i've fallen back down years of progress have taken me back to the exact same place, the exact same empty town
2.
theo: i'm coughing fully clothed in a bathroom drowning notes in a pool of bile and tears full release, scrub away all traces of courage all that got me out of bed through the past three years we were alone but we were alone together we scarred cathartic scratches all across each other's backs sympathetic urges borne within the depths of our chest as we remember the lives we're never getting back choked up by past mistakes and what i became i'm sorry, but i don't think i can help but make them again coughing blood, red pain dripping from our lips as the trembling of your voice matched your fingertips as they closed my eyes and fell away look what you've done you drank all of your pain away but i'm convinced you're still not okay there's nothing left, you threw away your world just for a safe escape you're just like him pat:i can't see my eyes have swollen shut but thats that's okay it's been the times i can't see that have kept me sane i'll close my eyes and i'll hope the pain goes away i'll close my eyes and i know that i'll be okay
3.
theo: i lost another fish today i can't say which because i named them all sammy he was the cute one why are they always the first to go dead fish flakes fall untouched unlocked, i wait and watch for your worried walks up wavered speech to hear you say my name stairs creak, harsh white light leaks through water throwing glowing glares across our chest, in attempts at giving shame i'm a stranger in my body i'm a stranger on your chest i just need to know you love me and will let me cry all day about my fish and it's okay for you to live without me because i kill everything that i love i'm scared to learn that i'm not different just the same shitty kid that i was it's okay for you to live without me because i kill everything that i love that's just the thing about me i hate everything that i wish i was kev: we’ll just go back to that day before we went our separate ways and happy just to hear you say you’d fix all of the things I break pets are dead, but that’s okay as long as you stay here today when you’re not there its not the same i'll get past this fucking day theo: it's okay to live without me but it's a shame we live at all dustin: what do you want me to do am i supposed to figure this out on my own is there any chance that you could help me get through this what about everything that we've been through does that mean anything to you why can't you stop me from fucking everything up all the time what's happened to you i guess we're done here

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produced by theo in the trout cave

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to all the people whose names we used, we love you

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released June 13, 2013

dustin: drums, spoken word
patrick: bass, vocals
theo: guitar, vocals


kevin: additional vocals on track 3 and gang vocals on track 1

lyrics by people that sing them

shirt made by pat in preschool or something
artwork by mazzy bell

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Airman Trout Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

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high school bois

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